First and foremost, I'm going to write this entry, and hopefully, future journal entries, properly. As much as possible, I will avoid making typographical errors and the like so that I wouldn't seem less competent than I really am. Plus, this journal is an expression of my inner thoughts, well, most of the time, so I should write it as clearly as possible for the sake of self-respect.

Now that that's over, I guess it's time to talk about how college life has been going for me. As the title suggests, I'm in one hell of a slump. College work is piling up and I'm nearly too tired to do anything else. Whenever I have free time to do draw, I can't seem to find any inspiration to do so. It feels like the only thing I want to do lately is to hole myself up in some cool corner in my room to rest or sleep. I don't even have the will to open my dA account and clear up my inbox. Due to this, I might not post anything, or anything grand at least, here on dA. (By the way, My Miss SDL round 2 entry is coming up though, so hopefully that will be enough. The entry's quality isn't so good though due to the lack of time and will to do it...'tis a suicidal entry OTL.) I guess this is simply a bout of laziness, and hopefully, I'll be able to get back to my old self.

Another reason for my slump is that I really miss my high school days and my friends. I keep on calling ~moonlight-fox whenever I can just to keep a sense of normality in my life! Sure, I have new friends in college, but it's simply hard to get used to life without having the usual craziness, friendly banters and gushing about random things with my old high school buds. This odd feeling of sadness isn't particularly strong, but it does bother me ever so once in a while so it gets pretty annoying. I simply wish that I'll get used to not having the old crew around so close anymore.

Apart from my slump, certain other thoughts bother me too. These days, all I can think about is, "Why am I such an incompetent student?" or "Why cant I make art with substance?" and "Why do I suck so much?" I feel so bad about myself and everything I do is not good enough for me lately. When I see my works from merely a few months ago, I get this strong urge to bang my head against a wall and wank about my lack of skill and talent. School isn't helping either since I feel like the earth is going to swallow me up whenever I get something wrong. So many great and better people are around me so I end up feeling like dirt compared to them.

I would like to rant and act all emo more, but I don't really think a lot of peeps, especially those who watch me for the art and (I know a lot are here for generally this *sighs*) my Hetalia fanart, are really interested in that. Sorry for this guys! If only dA was like LJ where I can control who is allowed to see my entries, I wouldn't be spamming your inboxes with my random crap. I promise to write something more optimistic next time, though I'm generally pessimistic contrary to first impressions of me here on the net, and post some WIPs.

Ja!
Sorara

P.S. Dang, why is my username so weeaboo?

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